Sunday, August 26, 2012
I Make My Own Crazy
Week 2 of The Artist's Way for Beaders (TAWFB) has been about recovering a sense of identity and one of the topics has been about identifying and dealing with "poisonous playmates" and "crazy makers." The first 2 times I worked through TAW I successfully dealt with all those nasty Negative Nellies, or so I thought. Now, here I am doing this a third time and I find that I am, as the saying goes, my own worst enemy.
I make myself crazy with all my self doubts and self defeating attitudes. I thought I had laid all those horrible beasts to rest, but that's not the case. Just like a bunch of zombies in a Z-grade horror movie they have crawled up from the depths, but instead of calling out for "Brains! Brains!" they're sucking away at my self-esteem.
Either way, it's something I need to work on and I'm open for suggestions.
Two other tasks for this week were to make a list of 20 things I enjoy doing and a list of 10 things I would like to; I'll give you 5 of each:
1. Word puzzles
2. Jigsaw puzzles
5. Rock climbing
I would like to:
1. Repaint my yoga/beading/dance room
2. Collect antique tea cups
3. Visit France
4. Dye my hair purple and get a new hair cut
5. Go on a retreat: yoga, belly dancing, beading, writing; any of these would do nicely